wiggles and kicks

So, the movement has officially begun. Friday morning I was sitting at work and had the feeling that someone was dragging their hand across the inside of my abdomen. It was the wierdest feeling ever. Caught me so off guard that for a bit I couldn't figure out what it was at all. Then I realized it was the baby, and it was so, well, indescribable. Later that evening, after I had eaten way too much chocolate, the baby kicked four times in a row. Everytime, I would gasp and Matt had to ask if it was hurting me. Which it didn't of course, they were very light, but it was just so unexpected for some reason. And the baby was wiggly yesterday too. Yay! The more I feel the baby wiggle and kick, and the more I listen to the heartbeat, the more I get girl thoughts for some reason. So, I officially do not know what this baby is. Well, of course I didn't before, but I was so completely positive it was a boy. Now, not so positive.

I actually got some things DONE this weekend. I have been a complete slug since getting pregnant. But Saturday my mom and I worked on remodling our bathroom, which was started pre-pregnancy, and not yet finished. Now all we have to do is some painting and then putting up the hardware, etc. and it will be done. I also cleaned our whole house top to bottom. It is lovely now!

Back to waiting for results. And feeling a bit panicky. Was starting to really worry this weekend about the 'what ifs' and being able to handle a special needs baby. And just feeling sad. Matt keeps telling me not to worry about things like that until we know, but it is hard for me not too. And I worry about telling everyone if there is a problem. I don't want to have to call my parents and tell them that. And almost everyone knows we went in for the test, so I always have people asking me if we got the results, and I worry if they are less than perfect I will burst into tears everytime someone asks me that.

Two weeks until vacation time. We are going with my parents to a cabin on a lake up north. Not exactly the ocean front vacation I have been dreaming for, but it will do. Anything to get away for a little while. I can't wait.

This coming weekend I have a HUGE wedding to photograph. Getting kind of nervous for that. And worried also, that if our results aren't great I won't be able to handle the wedding.

well. that is all for now. smooches to everyone.