Off to be a maid of honor.... And other thoughts

The Wedding
Talia and Michael's wedding is this weekend. So, I am off to be a maid of honor tomorrow morning bright and early. I am excited, partially because of the four day weekend, but mostly because of the wedding. It is going to be beautiful, and outdoors. Am worried about the possibility of rain, but will hope it stays away. Am sure I will come back with pictures, because even though I am in the wedding, I won't be able to resist taking gobs of them. As long as I have energy to. I don't think I have taken more than three pictures since finding out about baby m. Just to darn tired to do anything, really. Also excited about my dress. I absolutely love our bridesmaid dresses. Although I don't love the fact that I will be completely pale wearing the green, or that I am the biggest bridesmaid, despite the fact that there are two others that are quite a bit more pregnant than I in the wedding. I just cannot wait to leave work today knowing that I don't have to be back until monday.

And since I mentioned work......
I am honestly starting to worry about coming back after the baby. I would much rather stay at home, and while it is still an option, we don't know how realistic it is. We need to sit down and look at the numbers more, but I do believe that Matt is way to worried and it won't be happening. What I have resigned myself to now is asking to work 3 10 hour days. (that would be 10 less hours than I work now), and Matt work 4 10 hour days so he could be home with the baby one day, my mom would watch the baby one day and his mom one day. But-- big problem with that is that I don't know how I will even have motivation for THREE days. I am so worried that all I will really want to be doing is staying at home with the baby. And if I KNEW that I could get enough photography jobs, I would be happy. Alas, I have no clue how many I will get. I just don't know. I have only had one person talk to me about weddings lately, and her wedding is in January. So, I just don't know.