Grumpy Mondays

I hate Mondays.

I know I have said that a million times, but it is true.

Especially when my weekend was nice, but altogether too short.

Had a wedding to photograph this weekend. Was scared I would have no energy. With the normal pregnancy tiredness, the emotionally draining week, and the horrible cold I had, I didn't know if i would make it through. And then I think I was bordering on depressed because honestly, I didn't even want to take the pictures, I was just not into it. Thankfully when the wedding came, I had a better attitude, and more energy. It was a very full day-- over 12 hours of picture taking. And it was HOT. At one point being in the sun all day, with hardly any food in my stomach hit my HARD. I was feeling really awful. Thankfully I had a friend drive me to the reception and I got some water and some food and I felt better. It was a beautiful day for a wedding, and the majority of the pictures were outside which was great. The bride was (very young!) Bride Barbie, seriously. Very thin, tall, blonde and tan. She looked gorgeous. Got home that night and was very sick though. Slept with my head on a heating pad all night to try and rid myself of the severe ear pressure I had.

Sunday was nice. really, really, really nice. First off, I am so happy I have such wonderful people around me (you guys included). We have such great support with this whole thing. It is so nice to know we have so many people thinking of us. Then my parents, brother, Matt and I went to a picnic (at Wildcat, Crystal). It was so nice. Then we went swimming with my cousins. Just a very nice day. Had me wishing I was the age my cousins are-- about 13-- again, so all I had to do in the summer was play all day long, and I didn't have a care in the world.

None of my summer clothes fit me!!! It is awful. My winter clothes are fine. But my capris and shorts and summer shirts...nope! I need to shop. I have nothing to wear. I ~think~ maybe morning sickness may be subsiding. Not sure, as I have still been sick, but I think it is partially due to all the coughing I have been doing.

Still having my moments of discouragement about everything, but just trying to be positive. I want to enjoy my pregnancy still, and not have the whole thing overshadowed by all the negative stuff happening. I do have lots of thoughts running through my mind about it still, but I just don't want it to take over my whole life, you know?